Worry does not do one bit of good.

I started writing this on the 29th of July.  Just to show you how long of a road this has been.  BUT I want to be in God's will for my life...so I am definitely happy to wait for His timing! And, thank goodness, the time has come!

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I have been stressing about jobs.  I have a part time job.  I am not used to NOT working full time.  I have worked full time since I graduated x-ray school.  I worked the 7:30am-4:00 pm shift.  When I applied for Radiation Therapy School, a weekend position came open. (which NEVER happens) So, I took that weekend job, I worked 6am-10:30pm Sat & Sun.  Yes, 32 hours on the weekend and went to class and clinics for 40 hours during the week. (so you can see I am somewhat the work-a-holic)  However, I knew when I graduated therapy school that it is very very hard to get a job in the flooded market I became a part of, but I went to school for Radiation Therapy because it is what I love and where my heart is.  I also kept that weekend job for the entire time I was in school so that I would not be without a job when I graduated.  And because I was working for a certain company that owned other hospitals in the area I live, I was able to do some "sharred" staffing with other hospitals and gain experience and references at other places in their cancer center.

I work at one of those hospital's I "sharred staffed" at, doing Radiation Therapy now, I am getting around 32 hours a week.  But, I only treat patients for radiation half of the day, and the other half of the day I do x-ray.  I don't hate x-ray, but I am burnt out, I am done with it. I am ready to move on. That is why I went back to school to learn radiation.  I want to do radiation therapy and only radiation therapy all day for 40 hours a week.  I am so so so thankful for this job.  I graduated out of a class of 4 students.  I was 1of 2 that got a job.  I am so blessed to have this job so that I have gotten the "experience" everyone talks about that you need to have to get a job in the flooded market.  However, I am one of 2 therapists at this cancer center.  I am part time and the other is full time. My goal is full time...somewhere.

About a month ago I learned that the hospital about 5 minutes down the road from my house is hiring for a full time therapist.  {we will refer to this one as job A} I know both of the radiation oncologists that work at that center, because they both work with me at the hospital I work at now.  About a week later I learned that the hospital that I graduated from would be hiring for 2 new full time therapists.  {we will refer to this as job B} I was surprised and excited.  I went to therapy school there, I know all the therapist, Radiation Oncologists, residents, managers, director..etc.  So I applied to both of the "job B" jobs as they were posted online.  Followed up with emails to the director letting him know I was interested.  Friday, July 29th I got a phone call and it was the manager.  I did a phone interview.  It went well. I was frantic, I really really wanted this job.  It would be such a huge blessing to have something full time and stable.  I talked and talked to Ethan about it, over and over again... He finally let me know that whatever God's will is, that is what we want.  We have been praying for Him to open doors, and we have to trust that the closed door is not His will.  I was knocked back to reality.  I just had peace that God will take care of this like he always has...I should go into more detail about some things in my life and our life that He has taken care of, but I just want to focus on writing all this process out first.

Pro's of current job...

• I get off at noon 4 days a week.
• I still get 32 hours a week or so..
• I get paid really well here.
• This is the same hospital cooperation I have worked for since before x-ray school. (lots of time in one company)
• It's an easy job.
• It is a 20 minute drive from the house, with no interstate traffic involved.

Con's of current job...

• No chance of getting a full time position any time soon.
• It's a small hospital, so we don't see many different kinds of cancer
• I am not challenged much.
• Some days I work late in X-ray which I would rather not do anymore and I have to stay until 7pm.

Pro's of "job A" ..

• Only a 10 minute drive.
• Small center that treats lots more patients
• Has more of a selection of different patients on treat
• Does specialty treatments
• Know-of most of the therapists and think they would be great to work with.
• Know the doctors and how they work
• No late nights, and I would probably get home no later than 6

Con's of "job A" ..

• Not sure there are any cons...

Pro's of "job B" ...

• Went to school there, so I know how things work there
• I know the therapists and their personalities and get along with most well
• I know the docors there and how they treat
• I feel like I have an "in" and know what I'm getting myself into
• It's a university and it would look good on the resume
• I would be challanged
• I would get to see lots of different things...more than I would anywhere else.

Con's of "job B" ...

• Communication isn't great
• LONGG (1 hour +) drive in rush hour traffic = constant headache
• At least an hour commute one way= lots of gas used
• I would be very very busy and probably more tired at the end of the day
• Lots more people to work with =lots more people to deal with or have issues with
• They have a late shift = I wouldnt get home until 7pm or later with traffic

So, about two days after doing the phone interview with the university hospital they called and said they gave the position to 2 other people.  Don't get me wrong, I was bummed.  But, I think I knew deep down that I had to wait on God's timing.  I knew this was an answer to prayer, but I was still scared.  About a week after I found out about the "job B" positions being filled, the "Job A" position was finally posted online.  I applied for it, and began to wait once again.  After a month of waiting, I finally got a call to schedule an interview for the following week.  I interviewed, it went GREAT! I waited, the next day the recruiter called me and wanted to schedule me for an interview with her.  The following week I interviewed with her.  That happened on a Thursday and she was hoping to have an offer to whom ever they choose by Friday.  Well, Friday came and went, no call...no nothing.  I went on about my life, had peace about it all weekend and did not worry.  Low and behold, they called me around noon Monday with the offer and I accepted.  


I am thanking God for the open doors.  I just completed my first day of orientation at this hospital and I am so excited.  You see, this hospital is a Christian based organization, all through orientation they talked about why we are called to be healthcare workers and incorporated that its because it is what we are called to do.  We are being God's hands and feet, serving and taking care of others.  I am so excited for my future in this new season.  :)